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your dreams will be reduced down to breathing, and you will be grateful

The thing about not-being-a-person is: They will say those people and the price of being a person is to nod and agree that yes, those people aren’t people at all. They will have no idea who they are talking to. You yourself will start to forget, too. They will say a million small things that sow the seeds for violence done against you, and you will smile and let them. You will do math, constantly. How much do I want to be a person today? How much do I want this project to succeed? How much honesty can I afford? How much dishonesty will kill me? What is the cost of coming out? Is there a way to delay, soften, transmute? How long can I survive as half a person? Ever since the world ended ... I don't go out as much. People that I once befriended, just don't bother to stay in touch. Things that used to seem so splendid, don't really matter today. It's just as well the world ended -- it wasn't working anyway. Your dreams will be reduced down to breathing. [Read More]

on 03/5/12 | 2 Comments | Read More

Anatomy of an Autistic (V/V)

Anatomy Of An Autistic So it looks as if I have two options. Pass and learn, perfect, the art of being a person I’m not. Or don’t, and let everyone else define me as some entwined version of mo...[Read More]

on 12/30/11 | 4 Comments | Read More

Anatomy of an Autistic (IV/V)

Anatomy Of A Monster And what none of us passers want to talk about is what our passing does to those who can’t. Passing is necessitated because without it, we would be stuck being a Scary Disabl...[Read More]

on 12/29/11 | 3 Comments | Read More

Anatomy of an Autistic (III/V)

Anatomy Of A Passing Person Passing is…. Passing is… Well, passing is difficult, first of all. It’s constant anxiety, calculation, cognition, because remember, those of us who pass are ...[Read More]

on 12/28/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Anatomy of an Autistic (II/V)

Anatomy Of A Meltdown My brain likes to alternate between being made of swiss cheese (full of holes to fall in and through and down) and wax (for optimal melting). I have meltdowns a lot, in part b...[Read More]

on 12/27/11 | 2 Comments | Read More

Anatomy of an Autistic (I/V)

Writing is a struggle against silence. ~Carlos Fuentes Passing as a non-autistic, passing as neurotypical, means that you never get to actually be human. Be a person. You just learn how to get reall...[Read More]

on 12/26/11 | No Comments | Read More

Response

When I was a little girl, I was scared. That sentence has taken two months to write. When I was a little girl, I was scared. When I was a little girl, I was a lot of things. I was functionall...[Read More]

on 12/14/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Speech (without a title)

Hi. My name is Julia Bascom and I’ve had it easy. I had it easy. What this means is that in fifth grade I was the smartest kid in the class. I also did a lot of hiding under my desk, and I talk...[Read More]

on 12/12/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

The Obsessive Joy of Autism

I am autistic. I can talk; I talked to myself for a long time before I would talk to anyone else. My sensory system is a painful mess, my grasp on language isn’t always the best, and it takes me q...[Read More]

on 11/30/11 | 123 Comments | Read More

Whose Stories Get Told: Regarding Feeling Unsafe In The Glee Fandom

This is the second completed installment of five in the Don’t Give A Damn ‘Bout My Bad Reputation series, the other four of which are Dear Fail!Allies,The Greatest Crime In Television, and even...[Read More]

on 11/23/11 | No Comments | Read More

Dear Fail!Allies (Don’t Give A Damn ‘Bout My Bad Reputation)

Will I ever stop writing about Glee? Who knows! Not today! I should note that this actually turned out to be the second part of five, not the first of three as I say below. The first part is The G...[Read More]

on 11/15/11 | No Comments | Read More

Sugar, Self-Diagnosis, Appropriation, And Ableism: So Here’s What You Missed On Glee (pt. 2)

I have four short little stories for you all. One of them is about my brother. Well, my brother and I–we’re both autistic, and neither of us can pass for shit. We might not be identified as a...[Read More]

on 11/10/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Sugar, Self-Diagnosis, Appropriation, And Ableism: So Here’s What You Missed On Glee (pt. 1)

Glee is a show whose buzz is owed almost entirely to manufactured controversies. Unfortunately, this latest one is invoking autism, and as an autistic person and fan, I’m weighing in. Again. I’m...[Read More]

on 11/9/11 | No Comments | Read More

The Greatest Crime In Television (pt. 2)

Stealing a person’s words, their ability to look clearly at something and see it and know that they do, is the smallest and easiest way to kill someone. What I mean is, I say child abuse, and...[Read More]

on 11/4/11 | No Comments | Read More

The Greatest Crime In Television (pt. 1)

Sometimes I think the greatest crime in television is caring. Giving a damn is already practically illegal anyways, so it makes sense. A lot of the time, in fact, giving a damn is actually more of a ...[Read More]

on 11/3/11 | No Comments | Read More

Quiet Hands

1. When I was a little girl, they held my hands down in tacky glue while I cried. 2. I’m a lot bigger than them now. Walking down a hall to a meeting, my hand flies out to feel the textur...[Read More]

on 10/27/11 | 16 Comments | Read More

Grabbers

It’s a grabbers vs. flappers warzone. On the one side are the flappers. We wave and twist our hands in front of our faces or slap them against our chests. Our heads punctuate our moods and the ...[Read More]

on 10/27/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Diary of a Drooler

This is a story about disability. This is a story about the politics of drool. This is a lot of things, and maybe you should just read it. 1. So I want you to imagine being born a drooler. ...[Read More]

on 10/19/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Exploring The Social Model: Self-Determination

Autists are dis/abled.  As such, our needs are not met in a neurotypical world, our human rights and freedoms are denied, and participation in the world (socialization, work, college, even communi...[Read More]

on 08/30/10 | 16 Comments | Read More

On Intelligence, Perhaps

So I’m back in Lifeskills for a few weeks, hanging with my favorite AAC-using kids, and it’s got me thinking about the nature of intelligence and intellectual disability.  And so I will ramble an...[Read More]

on 08/23/10 | No Comments | Read More

Human Rights And Neurodiversity

Today was supposed to be about equality, as part of a series on Exploring The Social Model, but in light of recent readings and discussions, it seems that a necessary prerequisite to a discussion o...[Read More]

on 08/16/10 | 6 Comments | Read More

Goodness of Fit

This post is about pigeon holes. I have AS.  I am in the process of being re-diagnosed as HFA, or Autism Spectrum Disorder, or whatever it will wind up being called on my chart given the changing te...[Read More]

on 08/9/10 | 1 Comment | Read More

Exploring The Social Model: Accessibility

“Similarly, we have no concept in our current jurisprudence or our medicine, of what is normal for an autistic person. When we seek to educate and improve the quality of life for persons ...[Read More]

on 08/2/10 | 1 Comment | Read More

Exploring The Social Model: Introduction & Groundwork

The biggest problem I can identify in the conversation about autism today, the issue to which everything seems to boil down to, is the seeming refusal to acknowledge autism as a dis/ability—not a di...[Read More]

on 07/26/10 | 2 Comments | Read More

Missing The Point

So let's talk about the two, interconnected, obligatory buzzwords in the “autistic community” today: “neurodiversity,” and “cure”--specifically, a “cure” for autism.  Also addressed w...[Read More]

on 07/19/10 | 3 Comments | Read More

Differences (moving past a deficit-based model of Autism)

I’ve been doing some reading, on Amanda Baggs’ site, various articles linked to from Neurodiversity, and other random internet ramblings.  I’ve been trying to give my internet explorations some...[Read More]

on 07/15/10 | No Comments | Read More

“But You Seem So Normal!”

If there’s one statement that makes my head hurt and my skin feel weird, it’s this:  I say something along the lines of, “By the way, I have Asperger’s Syndrome.” They say, “Really? I can...[Read More]

on 07/5/10 | No Comments | Read More

Independence and Supports

I am not interested, in this particular post, in explaining why assistance technology and supported daily lives do not detract from independence, or why independence is not necessarily a goal, or why ...[Read More]

on 06/21/10 | No Comments | Read More

On Brain Transplants

Usually I can go a long and happy time without needing to think about the hypothetical “cure” question.  But I’ve had a few disparate thoughts lately, probably because I’ve been taking a cl...[Read More]

on 06/14/10 | No Comments | Read More

A Neat Verbal Write-Off

So we’re reading The Speed Of Dark in my sci-fi class next week, and I’m going to be sharing some information about autism.  Yays.  I’m still scripting various things out, but right now I...[Read More]

on 06/7/10 | No Comments | Read More