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your dreams will be reduced down to breathing, and you will be grateful

The thing about not-being-a-person is: They will say those people and the price of being a person is to nod and agree that yes, those people aren’t people at all. They will have no idea who they are talking to. You yourself will start to forget, too. They will say a million small things that sow the seeds for violence done against you, and you will smile and let them. You will do math, constantly. How much do I want to be a person today? How much do I want this project to succeed? How much honesty can I afford? How much dishonesty will kill me? What is the cost of coming out? Is there a way to delay, soften, transmute? How long can I survive as half a person? Ever since the world ended ... I don't go out as much. People that I once befriended, just don't bother to stay in touch. Things that used to seem so splendid, don't really matter today. It's just as well the world ended -- it wasn't working anyway. Your dreams will be reduced down to breathing. [Read More]

on 03/5/12 | 2 Comments | Read More

What I need and want

I want to be loved and accepted. I wish others to tell me that it’s wonderful that I was born. I feel guilty of existing, tell me I am wrong. I need to see others talking about how happy th...[Read More]

on 11/25/11 | 6 Comments | Read More

I can’t do simple everyday things

I am a little upset. I have a hard time doing simple things, simple daily life activities for example, I see others going to college, working, but I can’t do those things (not just because of A...[Read More]

on 11/16/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Autistics Speaking Day – Changing from shame to pride

My post for the Autistics Speaking Day. It’s very common for autistic people to feel burdensome for our loved ones and for society, common to feel shame of being autistic, it’s sadly expected...[Read More]

on 11/11/11 | 1 Comment | Read More

Mind conversation with myself

Mind conversation with myself. How to speak about the differences in perceiving the world before you learn that your view of the world is not the typical way? How would you know the difference be...[Read More]

on 10/26/11 | No Comments | Read More

Asperger, Self-diagnosis and the Media

I am aware that the TV show Glee portrayed a self-diagnosed Aspie (someone with Asperger) as someone using this as an excuse for being a jerk. Not only could this not be farther away from the truth,...[Read More]

on 09/27/11 | 1 Comment | Read More